Letting Go of What I Thought Would Be

During this pandemic, does your heart hurt some days when you realize all the things that are different now compared to how you thought they would be? I am grieving some losses and taking time to honor my emotions. I’m also hoping to make room for new possibilities and lessons. Here are some things I […]

2019 Victories

What a year 2019 has been! In so many ways, this year was easier than 2018. I am getting more sleep because Brooke started sleeping through the night consistently (around April). I am also getting used to motherhood and enjoying it more. Most importantly, I am moving forward in my healing, which has allowed me […]

My #MeToo Story

Today I felt a sudden burst of motivation to share my story of childhood sexual abuse. I want to spread awareness about the effects of trauma and inspire at least one person to seek help to heal from their past. Now that I’m at a point of clarity and understanding about the abuse I went […]

Motherhood Regrets and Revelations

It was Brooke’s first birthday yesterday. Honestly, I always imagined that my kids’ first birthdays would be full of excitement and fun. Yesterday was not. Thinking about her first year brought up a lot of feelings, especially ones that I have been trying to push down, like regret. Regret in motherhood. It’s a thing. […]

The Story of our Angel Baby

One year ago today, Daniel and I found out we were parents. We felt shocked and surprised that our birth control had failed… and excited and looking forward to meeting our unexpected baby. A few hours later, we found out that my pregnancy was ectopic. We felt devastated… and afraid that I might not make it […]

Brooke’s Beautiful Birth!

I am so excited to share Brooke’s birth story!!! (It has taken me a while, since I’m still figuring out how to get things done with a baby. Oh well!) Giving birth to Brooke was the most incredible, intense, emotional, and challenging thing I have ever done. As I have reflected on it over the […]

Our Happy News

I have been meaning to write this post for weeks, because we’re so excited to share this news with everyone… We are expecting a baby in January 2018!!!! I am 19 weeks pregnant (almost half way there!) and it’s starting to feel even more real. I feel the baby move all the time and my […]

What I’ve learned about Motherhood

This Mother’s Day is more special than any other I have ever had. I am actually a mother! I have such a mixture of emotions this weekend: sad, hopeful, confused, and grateful. I have never met our Angel Baby in person, but I feel like I have a sense of who he or she is. […]

God will lead us along.

I have been wanting to share more on my blog during the past weeks, but I’ve had a really hard time figuring out what I want write. There are so many things I want to share! School and work have been extra busy lately and I was just accepted for an internship at Y Be […]

Why I am Writing

As of today, Daniel and I have been married for 7 months and 13 days. In that short span of time, we have had many wonderful, yet difficult and soul-stretching experiences together. Marriage has been much better, but also much harder than we thought because of all the unexpected twists and turns in our path. We are […]